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In the winter of 1989 (I was 13), the filters that were on our furnace became clogged and carbon monoxide from the natural gas began leaking back into the house. I became very sick from the fumes because I stayed home from school “sick”, but my brother and mother/father both kept going to work/school, so they did not get as sick as I did.
Anyway, doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me, and kept referring my mother to psychiatrists. We saw allergists during this time, and I was tested for food allergies (showed up to wheat and citrus and a few others), but this did not explain why I was sleeping 16-20 hours a day. Even at Christmas that year I was only able to sit with my family an hour before being too exhausted to stay awake any longer. These months were a dark, grey time where I remember very little except for this.
One night I awoke and found myself down the street, floating about 50 feet off the ground. I was standing upright, and it felt like there was a thin thread attached to the skin of my heart that was pulling me forward. I looked to my right and saw other people at different heights drifting forward in this same fashion. The direction I was going was eastward, toward a massive, beautiful mountain whose peak was obscured by a brilliant white/gold light. I had the impression that this mountain lay just beyond the edge of our world, not within it.
At this moment, I looked down and saw the road and Park beneath my feet and said to myself “I can’t be flying” and suddenly I dropped from the sky into the snow. I looked up at the mountain again and thought “I can’t get there if I can’t fly.” I was suddenly very concerned about not being able to reach the mountain. Then, I thought “hey, I was just flying, maybe if I re-create that feeling in my heart, I will be able to fly again.” So I concentrated on my heart and focused, creating a sense of buoyancy. I rose up and moved toward the mountain again, much faster this time.
I came to rest about 100 feet from the summit, right on the edge of a cliff that faced the world. Soft green grass with tiny flowers grew here, and curled over the cliff edge a little. There was also a grove of trees loosely spaced around. If you can imagine the most perfect spring day, where the breeze is blowing and the world is waking up from a winters rest, growing. It was so beautiful that even thinking about it still brings me peace and happiness.
I looked up towards the summit and there seemed to be snow there, but emanating from the summit was this blinding white/gold light. It did not hurt to look upon it, and it seemed to have form (light being solid — hard to describe).
This light then pulsed at me, and the meaning pulsed through my whole being: “Do You Want To Stay Here?” I could not answer. I looked off the cliff edge back to earth. I could see the curvature of the earth, and clouds covering the landscape. I could see the individual street that my family lived on, and my house. If you were to look at a faraway hill, it would be like being able to see individual grains of sand and blades of grass.
I felt a concern for my parents, what they would feel like if I stayed here. I wasn’t sure of what to decide, because I felt inadequate to make a decision. Suddenly, I rushed off the mountain and woke up in my bed, feeling so energized. The weakness in my body was still there, but it didn’t seem as heavy anymore.
Within a few weeks, we saw another Allergist. She tested us for various kinds of chemicals. My Ethanol reaction was off the charts. She asked us if we had natural gas heating our home, my mother said yes, and the doctor said “you should get it checked.”
We got home and called the heating and air guy and he came out. His comment “boy am I sure glad you called me, the filters on your furnace were so clogged, another couple of weeks and you would have been dead.”
I took several years to digest the experience. The last ten or so, I have been living with severe environmental illness. I am so allergic to petroleum products and various chemicals (not to mention wood dust and indoor molds) that having a job or a home that does not have something in it that makes me sick has been an impossibility. There have only been a handful of days this decade where I felt “healthty” like I did before my sickness.
I am not afraid of death, I only fear to forget love/peace/beauty so much that it changes me away from being able to feel joy/happiness/hope. It has been hard, my illness changes my moods to negative very often, but I have come to see these feelings as chemicals in my body, the “real” me is separate from my body.
It allows me to operate to a degree even with severe pains shooting though my head and other parts of my body. Soon I hope to be able to build a home that will not make me sick.
Sorry to ramble on like that, I hope there is some information for someone in here. Reading near death experiences has been very good for my soul over the years. Please do not be afraid to share yours if you feel in your heart that the listener can benefit from it.
I had a bad day. I was depressed about my health, business and everything else that came to mind so I went to bed early, thinking the sleep would help me forget. I was wrong.
About 2:00 a.m. I awoke feeling very strange. I couldn’t see anything, but felt an energy or electric-like current running all through me. Also felt someone close to my right shoulder. I thought this was my wife, but soon determined the bed, with my wife in it, was far below me, and to my left. Wanting to find out who this presence was at my shoulder I tried to turn around. A voice said: “Please go back to sleep.” It was a male voice that seemed to originate within my thoughts or mind.
I wasn’t afraid, and I still wanted to know what was happening, so, I tried to turn again. The voice said: “Do you wish to continue here or would you like to go on?” After considering this question only a few seconds, I replied: “I want to continue, of course.” My reply was given as a thought.
As soon as I had answered, the energy surrounding me began to grow in intensity. The stronger it became the more I felt loved and supported by it. I became aware of (or remembered) my spiritual nature, and also, my purpose for being here. (I felt as if I had always known these things, but had somehow forgotten them.) I further knew that all people share this love and support. That everyone is held safe and secure and loved unconditionally by the Creator.
The intense energy lasted about 15 minutes (estimate). During this time, I felt total love, support, belonging, and an expanded knowledge of many things. I never wanted to leave this beautiful state of being; but finally the energy subsided and the voice said: “Please go back to sleep.” In the next moment, I was back in bed, with my wife next to me. The adventure, however, was far from over.
In the months following, the energy remained, though not as intense. I had many lucid/out-of-body dreams (dreams where you are aware of, and active in, the dream state) teaching me how to overcome my limitations and fears. My health improved, in about 18 months I was released from all medical care. In another 18 months, my business was sold and I found employment. Life was looking good again.
Currently, the story continues. I can still feel the energy. I am still learning about, and improving myself daily. I can’t remember every detail the intense energy allowed me to understand, but I know the most important thing is to teach, practice and live in Love.
Consciousness, mind, spirit, soul, psyche, life force, intelligent, divine spark, awareness, cognizance, perception, sensitive, etc., are words we use to describe the phenomenon of being. This wide variety of words are used in different contexts, and have connotations suitable for different modes of expression, i.e., formal, colloquial, religious, and secular. For this post only the word “consciousness” will be used.
The amount of material written about consciousness is massive, and would have one believe we understood the subject well, however, there are some real world facts that need to be considered.
Consciousness has never been observed. Neither has it been weighed nor measured. The source of consciousness is unknown. Its location, within or without the body, has never been found. No one has determined what consciousness is made of, or exactly what it contains. There is no proof that consciousness is biological.
True, we don’t know what consciousness is, only that it exists, and we could not exist without it, because we are consciousness.
You are eternal consciousness!
You, as consciousness, entered your body at birth, and will exit it at death. This is evidenced by millions of near death experiences. Now, I could list some NDEs along with testimony of surgeons and doctors who witnessed them in order to corroborate my point. But you can read them on the Internet anytime. Instead, I will link a Near Death Experience by a friend named David. This experience illustrates several things that can happen when you attempt suicide. I will also link a Before Birth Experience, in order to give some good thoughts on how consciousness, (that’s you), moves through the physical dimension. David’s Experience Before Birth Experience Bonus Experience
At that moment I felt the presence of my creator and that my struggle to believe in a God on earth was over. “IT” had complete control over me, which was so soothing to me, it is indescribable. “IT”, was emanating an unconditional love of “ITSELF” and for me. My GOD was taking me and it felt so good. I felt no pain anymore nor any of the other miseries felt on earth, including time, there was no time. I was in total comfort. Through this, GOD gave me a feeling but no “sight” of something, someplace that was so horrible for those that rejected HIM on earth. To this day I carry that same feeling. After all this, as I was moving toward an opening or something, something I could not make out yet. I was just entering HIS light, different from what we know on earth, when GOD spoke to me, in a voice unlike any on earth. It was all telepathic between us but was like talking on earth. God then, asked me a question? Is there anything worthy of ME to go back for? Instantly there was only one thing that came to me. It was the woman in my life I so much loved. My love for her expressed the same love that HE was all about. I replied: my Nancy. I had never felt this type of love for anything or anybody in my life except for her. At that moment, I reversed my floating and I followed my path back to my body where I felt this heavy pounding on my chest. As I started to awaken I could barely see the two paramedics over me. I was in a semi-conscious state all the way to the hospital and into hours in emergency. As I was coming too, I didn’t know what happened to me because I had been asleep through all this. A doctor had come in who was treating me and said he couldn’t diagnose what happened.
