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You were not our cat, but we loved you as you were. Chasing leaves blown across our lawn in the April breeze. Playing finger-tag on the windshield of my car, your tiny paw on one side, my finger on the other. Knocking at our door for a treat. We loved you greatly. Now you are with one whose love is greater than ours, waiting. We will assuredly see you again.
Spiritual, and/or faith healing are real. We know they are real because of the placebo effect. If a person is given a fake pill, and told by a doctor the pill will cure his illness, it is almost certain that his illness will improve, and in some instances the fake pill may actually seem to cure the patient. This is an example of faith healing. The faith being in the doctor, and his knowledge of medicine.
Faith healing is one kind of spiritual healing that requires a strong belief in the healer and/or the method the healer uses. While faith healing can be very effective in the moment, it can also be short-lived, and disappointing in the long run because it does not address the underlying cause of illness.
During, and for some time after my near death experience I felt a great amount of spiritual energy running through my body. I knew the near death experience had healed my heart problem, and the energy present in my body from the experience was the method by which I was healed. So I began to read a great deal about spiritual energy after my experience, and participated in many healing sessions with others in order to learn more.
I learned life is maintained by a natural life force. This is the natural energy of the universe, and it permeates everything, everywhere. The energy is within us, and we are within the energy. It is the Oneness of everything and we have our existence within the Oneness. Some people hold a large amount of this natural energy, while others may only hold a small amount of it. I know this energy is spiritual love, or God’s Love, and the more love a person holds, the more life energy is present. God is unconditional love. God is the sum total of all things that exist, and we are within God, and God is within us, at all times.
We are surrounded and permeated by God’s spiritual love, we are created from it, it’s the cause and reason for our existence. God’s Love flows through our being in an endless stream of renewal. As our life’s blood flows through our physical being, so God’s love flows through our spiritual being.
However, in the physical world this stream of love energy can be slowed to a mere trickle by negative thoughts and emotions, slowed to the extent we can no longer feel the love, peace, and security it brings us. When this happens we feel alone, and separated from God. We are fearful of the future and full of doubt. Our self-confidence is low sometimes leading to depression and other maladies. Both mental and physical troubles seem to assail us when we least expect it. At this point in life we are standing in the need of healing. Spiritual healing.
Healing is available to everyone for the asking. Everyone willing to walk the path of spiritual growth. My near death experience did not make me spiritual, it handed me no spiritual growth. I was already spiritual as everyone is spiritual. It did give me the knowledge of what spiritual growth was, and why I should walk the path of spiritual growth. My near death experience enlightened me. It gave me knowledge of my purpose and mission. Life has great meaning to me now, my goal, as well as my mind, is clear. It provided me with the incentive to become the best person I could be.
Most of the things we think about ourselves are not true. They are the direct opposite of who we are, and what we are capable of becoming. Jesus is our example of strong spiritual growth. Spiritual growth that each one of us can and will eventually achieve through our own efforts and perseverance.
John 14:12: Jesus said:
Otherwise believe for the very works’ sake. Amen, amen I say to you, he that believeth in me, the works that I do, he also shall do; and greater than these shall he do.
We are not weak, insignificant little beings. We are the sons and daughters of God. We have free will to choose our path through life, and most of us choose smallness over greatness. We never realize the power of our choices to fulfill our dreams. Our choices are very important, because what we choose, so we become. Below is a quote that illustrates that dramatically.
“I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and I receive as I have asked.”
A Course In Miracles, Foundation for Peace.
If you want to be healed and walk the spiritual path of love it is necessary for you to accept responsibility for where you are now. Note that wherever you are in your life right now, that is the place you are supposed to be. There were no accidents or mistakes in your life. You chose to be where you are at today for learning purposes.
Now if you are not pleased with the choices you have made in life, and not satisfied with where you are right now. If you feel you have little or no control over the direction your life has taken or the direction it will take in the future then you can change all that by choosing to walk the spiritual path of love.
The path is not hard, nor it is easy. It takes commitment and perseverance. It is a daily event, some small amount of time should be devoted to it every day. Perhaps only fifteen minutes a day will change your perspective of life and enable you to know it is real. Below is another quote to reveal some of the techniques used in walking the path.
“There is nothing in your exterior experience that you did not originate within yourself. Interactions with others do occur, yet none occur what you do not attract or draw to you by your thoughts, feelings, attitudes or emotions. In your terms this applies both before, during and after physical life. In a most miraculous fashion you are given the gift of creating your own experiences.
“Do not personally give any more conscious consideration to events that you do not want to happen. Any such concentration, to whatever degree, ties you in with those probabilities, so concentrate upon what you want, and as far as public events are concerned, take it for granted that sometimes even men are wiser than they know.
“One: I will approve of myself, my characteristics, my abilities, my likes and dislikes, my inclinations and disinclinations, realizing that these form my unique individuality. They are given me for a reason.
“Two: I will approve of and rejoice in my accomplishments, and I will be as vigorous in listing these — as rigorous in remembering them — as I have ever been in remembering and enumerating my failures or lacks of accomplishment.
“Three: I will remember the creative framework of existence, in which I have my being. Therefore the possibilities, potentials, seeming miracles, and joyful spontaneity of spirituality will be in my mind, so that the doors to creative living are open.
“Four: I will realize that the future is a probability. In terms of ordinary experience, nothing exists there yet. It is virgin territory, planted by my feelings and thoughts in the present. Therefore I will plant accomplishments and successes, and I will do this by remembering that nothing can exist in the future that I do not want to be there.”
By Seth as given to Jane Roberts in the “Seth” books.
If you are still reading this, and you can at least entertain the possibility that you can create your own realty, we are ready to start building the foundation upon which your spiritual growth can take place.
Affirmations are the foundation of spiritual growth. Not just any affirmations, but those designed to build self-confidence and positive thoughts. While it may seem strange to start with affirmations, it is the fastest and best way to change negative thoughts and beliefs into positive ones. They need to be done on a daily basis preferable right before going to bed. If done on schedule you should notice improvement in a few months. It usually takes about a year to achieve an improved perception of self and life in general.
This is a small price to pay for the benefits received, and the time may seem long, but anything worth achieving takes time. You wouldn’t expect to learn to play the piano in a week, or get a college degree in a year. So be patient and practice, it will happen for you.
I wrote a set of affirmations over 20 years ago and over the years they have helped numerous people including myself. They are shown below.
The following is a list of Personal Growth Affirmations.
I have found this list most helpful in building confidence and trust. I offer it here as a guide for the reader.
Affirmations are powerful life changers when used daily over a long period of time. They work best when read (or written) twice a day while trying to visualize each affirmation vividly in your mind.
Please feel free to copy (and paste), or print the affirmations for your personal use.
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I am a good person. I am loved. I am love.
I am worthy of prosperity.
I am worthy of abundance.
I am worthy of joy. I am worthy of happiness.
I am perfect health. I am perfect order.
I am always successful. I am mentally clear.
I am responsible for my life.
I am responsible for my life only.
I am free to choose the direction of my life.
I am choosing the direction of my life.
I am in control of my life.
I am in control of my life only.
I am blessing everyone and everything in my life.
I am safe and secure.
I am completely safe and secure.
I am forgiven. I am forgiving all others.
I am at peace with myself.
I am at peace with the world.
I am open to all knowledge.
I am letting the knowledge reveal truth.
I am open to all truth. I am open only to truth.
I am living in truth. I am truth.
I am in my perfect career now. I am being myself.
I am open to my perfect loving partner now.
I am open to let my life’s purpose reveal itself to me now.
I am ready to receive my good.
I am courage. I am whole. I am eternal.
I am living in eternity now.
I am living in the present now.
I am loving myself. I am loving all others.
I am providing good in this world.
I am allowing good into all phases of my life.
Now you are ready to build the foundation of your spiritual growth. It is somewhat like a “Catch 22” instead of believing it when you see it. You will see it when you believe it. So that is what the affirmations are all about. Don’t judge them, or analyze them, just practice them regularly on a daily basis. As your thoughts become more positive their value will become more apparent to you. In time you will understand in a way that will show you the next step on the path to spiritual growth.
Don’t rush, you are eternal, all the time you need is available.
If you have questions or comments I would love to hear about them.
To give up resentment, and claim to retribution for a loss or insult.
Forgiveness is something you do for yourself. When you forgive, it is you that receives the blessing. Practice by saying: “I forgive you world, and all people, for everything harmful I believe you have done to me.” Forgiveness releases the emotions of fear, anger, hate, and guilt we build up in our relationships with others. It allows us the put the hurt behind and go bravely into the future. The person who most deserves your forgiveness is yourself. Forgive yourself frequently for all those things you believe you screwed up. Say: “I forgive myself, I accept myself, I love myself.” Say it often.
The following story is about a dear friend
of mine who almost let her past end her life.
Fortunately, her crisis led her to a deeper
understanding of her true identity as
a spiritual being and encouraged her to
use the tools of creation to create the
kind of life she wanted to live.
Enjoy!
Eileen stumbled up the motel stairs,
blinded by the despair she felt. She
carefully clutched her bag, guarding
the keys to her escape. Glancing around
the hall to be sure no one would disturb
her, Eileen slowly unlocked the
door to her room.
Safely inside, she began to unpack her
bag. She contemplated her plan as she
systematically lined the bottles of pills
on the night stand. No one could stop her
now. She had driven out of town, registered
under a false name, and placed the “Do
Not Disturb” sign on her door. This time
she would make no mistakes. She would take
the pills quickly to assure that death
would come before she could be rescued.
Her suicide was not a cry for help.
She wanted to die.
For the last fifteen years, Eileen had
worked hard in therapy to bring her life
back together. She was raising her two
sons and had managed to complete her masters
degree in counseling. The painful memories
of childhood abuse had not kept her from
securing a job as a college professor.
She had learned to cope with the limitations
of a multiple personality.
Unfortunately, she had recently uncovered
memories with which she could not live. Her
family had subjected her to ritualistic abuse;
consequently, she had participated and observed
events that are too horrifying to describe.
These memories were more than she could bear.
Even though she was a child when these events
occurred, she considered herself evil and wanted
to die. She loved her two sons, but she felt
that they would be better off without her.
Her first suicide attempt had failed. This
time she had to succeed.
Gulping as many pills as she could, Eileen
waited for the inevitable. It was not long
before she drifted into unconsciousness,
the darkness of death overtaking her.
Suddenly the darkness opened, and Eileen found
herself standing at the end of a tunnel of light.
She moved easily through the tunnel to the other
side where she was surrounded by the most
beautiful light she had ever experienced. She
was filled with the feelings of love.
Even though she was without her body, she was
conscious of her individual self. She found
herself in the Presence of God. She knew
immediately she was a part of God, and she
was one with God. There was no sense of
separation; there was only God.
Eileen had committed suicide because she
believed the events in her life were unforgivable.
In this light, she discovered there was no need
for forgiveness because in God there is no judgment.
She was totally loved just as she was.
The message came for her to return to fulfill her
mission on earth. Two days later, she returned to her
body, experiencing a peace that passes all understanding.
Although there is no way to be sure, Eileen believes
she died and spent two days in the Presence of God.
Upon her return, Eileen called a friend to ask for
help. Her friend called the police, who then took
her to the hospital. She was in such a state of peace
that the doctor discharged her, bypassing the usual
psychiatric observation time.
When asked what she learned from her crisis, Eileen
says she now knows she can go through anything. She
has learned that she is a part of God and that God
is all light and love. She is no longer so critical
of herself because God does not judge.
Eileen says that her life has not been without
challenges. She had to make a conscious effort
to change her thoughts, bringing them in line
with what she learned in her near death experience.
She continues to use affirmations and prayer to
deprogram her old way of thinking, allowing her to
express more of her true identity as a part of God.
I hope this story will inspire you to let go
of the past and embrace your true identity as
a child of God.
Have a great day and remember to think
positive thoughts.
Marty Varnadoe Dow, LCSW
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