This book is a journey into life. It travels through the fears of hell fire and other life changing events into the cool water of peace and love. It was my journey and I want to share it with you. Maybe you won’t find the road as bumpy as I did if you know where the pot holes lie.
As a youth, in church, I was taught about a God that could be loving, jealous, or angry with me depending on how I believed or acted. Only it just wasn’t that clear what I needed to do to appease Him. If I did the wrong thing this God would send me to hell where I would be punished forever. I would burn eternally in the fires of hell. I was a sensitive child, and it bothered me. Although I believed I was doing all the right things, I could never be sure. So I developed anxiety about my life and started to have anxiety attacks. I lost confidence in myself and didn’t know what choices to make. I lost motivation, just didn’t care anymore. I was afraid of this less than loving God. I couldn’t take any more of the teachings, so as I grew older I quit church.
In High School I joined the chess club and attended the school football games. I dated a girl whom would later become my wife. The fears of hell began to subside as I got on with my life. I forgot all about religion and considered it something to avoid. When I joined the Navy and got caught in the middle of Hurricane Audrey I remembered how to pray, everyone on the ship was praying. We got through the storm with only injuries and a badly beaten ship. In college I began to learn about religion. It helped to lessen my fears of hell. I read Bible history, comparative religions and church doctrine. I was gaining knowledge that would help me understand life, and was enjoying it.
Later I worked in the typesetting business and finally became the owner of a typesetting plant. It was hard work and changed rapidly as computers came upon the scene. There was a lot to learn, and the hours became longer for me. My health was declining from the long hours, so I tried harder to get the business stabilized. But once more in my life I would face death. I had a heart attack. It was a mild one, but it made me think about the afterlife again.
Then later, in the wee hours of morning I had an experience that allowed me a glimpse of the afterlife. I went out of my body. I was surrounded by love and compassion that was as cool water on a fevered brow. I knew I had met the real God; the one I knew existed. I felt motivated again; I was fully alive and starting on a new adventure of helping others. But I needed to heal myself first. There’s a chapter on how this happened.
If you decide to read this book, I believe it will help calm any fear of God or the afterlife. God is love.