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It was another dreadfully cold and snowy Monday in Indianapolis; a town far away from home and a place I truly despised. I did not have family near by and I was in a terrible marriage. On that November 15, 1993, the fear of cancer was added to my already, unsettled life and the only option was surgery.
As I woke up in the recovery room, I heard a voice telling me that there was no cancer. Shortly thereafter, I realized something was very wrong. There were many alarmed voices and fast moving bodies huddling over me. I was crying out, “WHAT IS WRONG?,” yet no one would answer. I reached for someone, but my arms would not move. My vision failed me and I could only hear faint voices, the most prominent one stating, “Her blood pressure is dropping, oh my God, we are losing her, get the ventilator!” Panic began to overcome me and I screamed, “PLEASE, HELP ME!”
A beautiful, luminous light appeared. It was so pretty and peaceful looking. As I slowly walked towards the light, I could feel a glorious warmth on my face. It made me feel content and happy for the first time in years and I wanted to stay there forever. However, I heard many noises behind me and turned back. I could see the doctors and nurses working on my lifeless body. At this point, going towards the light was so easy compared to my complicated life.
Once again, I turned to walk into the light and this time I heard some familiar voices behind me. As I turned to look, I could hear my children crying, “Mommy, please don’t leave us!” Both of them were reaching out for me. There was a beautiful light on one side and my children on the other, what to do?
The next thing I remember was opening my eyes and the light was replaced with a green wall. The voice I heard was a nurse telling me, “welcome back.” I had been in a coma for three days.
This experience changed my life. I made many changes and now my children and I are very happy. Sometimes, I can not believe I had to think about the choice of the light or my children, but I am thankful for the choice I made.
Has anyone else ever had to make such a choice during their NDE? Was this a voluntary return or just not my time yet? –T.
The Christian religion is based on the life and teachings of Jesus. Jesus the Christ, Son of God is the only reason there are over a billion Christians in the world today divided into thousands of different denominations of faith.
Now, according to the Old Testament of the Bible, Adam and Eve committed the first sin, and thereby created what is known as original sin. Through the ages this weighed heavily upon some Christian faiths. They felt it necessary to harm themselves in order to atone for this original sin. They felt the need to suffer as Jesus did to wash away their transgressions and “get right” with God.
Thus began to the practice of flagellation. They made whips of bamboo and struck themselves until their backs were raw and bloody. With sharp metal objects they would pierce their tongues and other body parts. A few were known to die during these rituals.
Today, most accept Jesus as the Son of God, our Savior, who died on the cross for our sins. Those who believe are saved, and rewarded with Heaven at the end of their life. Thus we are saved from original sin, and otherwise, by faith, and not by works.
Yet, Jesus’ teachings are about a loving, forgiving God. A God that does not judge His children. Instead, God surrounds them with unconditional love. This is the God Near Death Experiencers are finding to be true when they have a NDE. I believe we need to follow Jesus by honoring His teachings.
When Jesus was teaching the call to love from the hillsides of Galilee, there were no Christian churches, no doctrines of Christianity, and no “New Testament of the Bible” to guide those who listened. He explained that He came to bring life, abundant life to those who had ears to hear and eyes to see. He asked the crowds to “seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and all other things will be added unto you.” When the question was asked: “Where is this Kingdom of God?” He replied “the Kingdom of God is within you.” The Kingdom of God is Love; universal, unconditional love. That is what Jesus taught. There isn’t any difference between the love Jesus taught, and the love millions felt in their Near Death Experiences. They are the same; they are God’s love.
In God’s golden light of love, there is peace, joy, safety and understanding. All the wisdom of the world: who you are, and what you are doing here, is explained. There is clarity of mind, and choices become easy. Love comes to all who seek; all are worthy. No one is “lost” or out of favor with God. All have made mistakes, but God’s love is greater than any mistake. There are no doctrines to follow; no rituals to perform; no money to pay. Ask God to teach you how to love.
Many times I have been approached by a person asking: “Are you saved?” I was raised in evangelical religion so I knew what they were asking. My common answer is yes. I try not to get involved in religious discourse.
But one day a young girl asked me that question. Then she told me she wasn’t worthy of God’s love until she accepted Jesus as her Savior. He had died for her sins. Accepting that belief made her worthy of God’s love.
I remembered my early struggles between religion and logic. I could not reconcile the differences and left the church. On one hand I was told God is love and on the other that He would sacrifice His own son to Himself for the sins of the world. Just didn’t make any sense.
I know well the story of Jesus’ crucifixion, I do not see the hand of God in it. It was the priests that wanted Jesus eliminated. Jesus was preaching love for all, forgiveness for all. Jesus was not preaching rules, rites, and protocol of a religion. He was preaching unconditional love for all. It was something new and the priests felt appalled that this teaching would excel their message and wanted Jesus exterminated. They were willing to tell any lie, go to any length to kill Jesus, and they succeeded.
I explained my thoughts of God to the young girl, telling her worthiness is freely given by God. Everyone is worthy of God’s unconditional love. It is the very essence of God to be forgiving, and loving. Jesus’ teachings tell us the nature of God. Jesus speaks for God, not man. The young girl relaxed her frown of determination to save me. Believing the teachings of Jesus, I was never lost.
