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It was another dreadfully cold and snowy Monday in Indianapolis; a town far away from home and a place I truly despised. I did not have family near by and I was in a terrible marriage. On that November 15, 1993, the fear of cancer was added to my already, unsettled life and the only option was surgery. As I woke up in the recovery room, I heard a voice telling me that there was no cancer. Shortly thereafter, I realized something was very wrong. There were many alarmed voices and fast moving bodies huddling over me. I was crying out, “WHAT IS WRONG?,” yet no one would answer. I reached for someone, but my arms would not move. My vision failed me and I could only hear faint voices, the most prominent one stating, “Her blood pressure is dropping, oh my God, we are losing her, get the ventilator!” Panic began to overcome me and I screamed, “PLEASE, HELP ME!” A beautiful, luminous light appeared. It was so pretty and peaceful looking. As I slowly walked towards the light, I could feel a glorious warmth on my face. It made me feel content and happy for the first time in years and I wanted to stay there forever. However, I heard many noises behind me and turned back. I could see the doctors and nurses working on my lifeless body. At this point, going towards the light was so easy compared to my complicated life. Once again, I turned to walk into the light and this time I heard some familiar voices behind me. As I turned to look, I could hear my children crying, “Mommy, please don’t leave us!” Both of them were reaching out for me. There was a beautiful light on one side and my children on the other, what to do? The next thing I remember was opening my eyes and the light was replaced with a green wall. The voice I heard was a nurse telling me, “welcome back.” I had been in a coma for three days. This experience changed my life. I made many changes and now my children and I are very happy. Sometimes, I can not believe I had to think about the choice of the light or my children, but I am thankful for the choice I made. Has anyone else ever had to make such a choice during their NDE? Was this a voluntary return or just not my time yet? –T. © 2019, Lekatt. All rights reserved. It was one of those days when I couldn’t think of anything to post on the blog. A friend wrote me, and I replied with a letter I thought might interest others. A friend asks: “Back to our souls journey. I have asked you about your NDE before but please allow me to ask again. How does it manifest now. Is it a knowing that is as fresh as the instant you where with God. I have no doubt it is still with you but I am eager to hear details of your progression. Last time I asked I believe you said some things did fade a bit but I am assuming the imprint upon your soul is still as strong, otherwise you would still be struggling with some of the same problems as you had stated in your life story.” My Reply: Yes, I did get a big step up with my Near Death Experience, I like to call it my enlightenment. When I was in the Divine presence everything was real and perfect, all knowledge was there just for the asking, and the love and compassion were complete. It didn’t matter what I had done, left undone, or believed. The only thing that mattered was me. I could have stayed forever, but my family needed me so I asked to returned. Don’t have all the knowledge I experienced available now, nor the love, but I do know, without doubt, it will be available on my return. I lost my fear of death, we are eternal. There’s plenty of time to learn and accomplish whatever we wish. I changed my belief system about this world. I learned that positive beliefs matter. You find out things through experience. There is little knowledge without experience. I try to learn as much as possible from what I experience. © 2018, Lekatt. All rights reserved. What I learned from my near death experience is that beliefs we hold are not reality nor truth. However, these beliefs are responsible for our happiness and joy, or our sadness and depression. It is very important to understand that what you believe can help or hurt you. The axiom of “you create your own reality,” is very true. If you think badly of yourself it reflects in all your thoughts and deeds prompting others to think badly of you also. Hopefully, you will think well of yourself and your ability. I learned what unconditional love is like, and why it is important for me to learn to love in that manner. It is love that holds everything together. It is love that replaces fear and gives you self-confidence. It is love that brings peace and joy into your life. It is love that heals both physically and mentally. I am trying now to walk the path of love, forgiving my faults and shortcomings, and forgiving others theirs. I am using love to stop judging myself. No one said it would be easy, but it is rewarding beyond belief. © 2018, Lekatt. All rights reserved. |
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