A Near Death Experience, No. 182.

Infantile Obstructive Sleep Apnea.

My parents told me when I was probably 2 or 3, maybe younger, they would find me asleep, sweaty and un-responsive for a few minutes.

At about the age of 34, I was 125 pounds over-weight. I went to the Doctor because I could not stay awake. I would fall asleep standing up, while talking to someone. The doctor told me, due to the extra fat around my neck from being over-weight, I had severe obstructive sleep apnea. I was unable to breath while I was sleeping.

I now have to assume I had this disorder as a 2 or 3 year old. Maybe earlier. One of the classic symptoms of sleep apnea is excessive sweating while sleeping. Infantile Obstructive Sleep Apnea. Probably similar to Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.

From my youth, I have one dream I have always remembered clearly. As if it happened last week. I have no way to pin-point the age to closer than 2 or 3.

I was in a white cloudy room. I remember it being round. I was standing at a large window looking into another white room with no doors. A figure, whom I assume to be my father was inside the room, I was looking into. It could have been just a generic male figure. A vibrating sound started. Like a fan, getting louder and more menacing sounding. I started to become very afraid. I wanted him to get out of that room.

Black spots started appearing on the floor inside the room in random places. The spots would start small and grow to about person sized then disappear. The sound kept getting louder. Finally, one of the holes appeared right under him. It sucked him in and he was gone.

I remember waking up completely terrified. Even more than that. Mortified. I remember being so effected, I could not control my body. I just stood there Quaking. Nothing I experience will ever come close to that level of anxiety. Complete loss, fear, anxiety. I am starting to equate that to not wanting to be sent back from where ever I was. Being sent back, If I was, Definitely did not make me happy.



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