My Son.
MY SON IS IN HOSPICE. MY SON IS DYING OF TERMINAL BRAIN CANCER. HE IS IN A LOT OF PAIN.I HAVE HAD SEVERAL NDE EXPERIENCES MYSELF. I AM USING ALL CAPITAL LETTERS BECAUSE IT IS EASIER FOR ME AS I HAVE ARTHRITIS.
I AM NOT AFRAID FOR HIM TO DIE, AS I HAVE BEEN TOLD BY MY GUIDES, OR ANGELS, THAT WE ARE ACTUALLY THE ONES WHO ARE DEAD. I THINK HE IS AFRAID. HE HAS HAD A HORRIBLE LIFE. HE WAS CLASSIFIED MENTALLY ILL, BUT AFTER HIS BRAIN TUMOR OPERATION, PERFORMED IN PRISON HOSPITAL, IT WAS DISCOVERED THAT HE WAS NEVER MENTALLY ILL BUT THAT THE BAD BEHAVIOR HE HAD WAS DUE TO THE TUMOR.
HE GOT TREMORS AFTER THE OPERATION, AND BECAME BLIND ALSO. HE HAD BEEN IN AND OUT OF HOSPITALS FOR MENTALLY ILL FOR YEARS, AND JAILS. THEY WANTED TO PUT HIM AWAY FOR TWENTY YEARS TO LIFE BECAUSE HE HAD A THREE STRIKES YOU ARE OUT PROBLEM. WE HAD IT PUT DOWN TO SIX YEARS.
WHILE IN PRISON THEY SAY THRU AN EXAMINATION THAT THEY FOUND THE TUMOR, WHO KNOWS? HE IS NOW VERY SWEET AND KIND. EVERY THING IS APPRECIATED ON WHAT I DO FOR HIM. HE IS FILLED WITH LOVE.
I AM A METAPHYSICAL PERSON. I WAS BORN CATHOLIC, HOWEVER OVER THE YEARS I INVESTIGATED METAPHYSICS, AND IT SAVED MY LIFE, AND BROUGHT ME INTO A BEAUTIFUL AND COMFORTING POSITION IN THIS DIFFICULT WORLD.
YOU SEE I HAVE THREE HANDICAPPED GROWN CHILDREN OUT OF MY FIVE. THE FIRST CHILD WHO IS NOW FORTY, SUFFERED FROM ANOXIA AT BIRTH SHE HAS CEREBRAL PALSY, THEY WANTED ME TO GIVE HER UP TO THE STATE WHEN SHE WAS SIX WEEKS OLD, AS THEY SAID SHE WOULD BE A VEGETABLE, I DID NOT.
SHE IS MARRIED, AND TAKES ALL KINDS OF CONTINUAL EDUCATION CLASSES. THEN MY FOURTH CHILD IS DEAF, I SUFFERED THE FLU WHEN I CARRIED HER AND SHE WAS BORN DEAF. SHE WENT TO A JR. COLLEGE AND IS MARRIED.
WHEN I GAVE BIRTH TO HER I ALMOST DIED. HAD TO BE GIVEN BLOOD AND I WENT TO THE PLACE WHERE SHE CAME FROM, AS I WAS DYING AND SHE WAS BEING BORN. IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL THERE, THAT THE WORD BEAUTIFUL IS NOT NEARLY DESCRIPTIVE ENOUGH. I DID NOT WANT TO COME BACK TO MY BODY AND THEN I HEARD MY OWN VOICE SAY YOU HAVE TO GO BACK, YOUR CHILDREN WILL NEED YOU. I RELUCTANTLY LEFT. NOW I AM TAKING CARE OF MY DEAF DAUGHTERS BROTHER.
MY SON. HE WILL SUFFER A VERY HARD DEATH, TO BE MENTALLY ILL, BLIND, HAVE TREMORS, BRAIN CANCER IS HELL ON EARTH. I AM AMAZED AT STRANGERS KINDNESS, AND EQUALLY AMAZED THAT SOME IN MY OWN FAMILY CHOOSE TO RUN FROM OUR SINKING SHIP.
I HOPE THAT THE EXPERIENCE FROM THIS WILL LEAVE ME STRONGER, AND I HOPE TO SEE HIS LAST BREATH, AND TO FEEL HIS SPIRIT GO THRU MINE AS HE LEAVES. I HAVE STUDIED DEATH MOST OF MY LIFE. I NEVER KNEW WHY, NOW I DO. I HAVE READ ALL OF THE SO CALLED SELF HELP BOOKS.
I SEE REALLY BAD PEOPLE IN MY LIFE, HAVING THE BEST OF LUCK, HEALTHY FAMILIES. ETC. OH, SURE, I HAVE HELPED A LOT OF PEOPLE, BECAUSE OF MY EXPERIENCES. AND SO I KNOW MY SOUL HAS GAINED A LOT OF WISDOM.
HOWEVER, IT NEVER ANSWERS MY QUESTION. I DO NOT WISH BAD TO HAPPEN TO ANYONE. I JUST WONDER WHY? EVER SEE THE MOVIE LES MISERABLES? MY SONS PROBLEMS STARTED OVER TWENTY YEARS AGO WHEN HE STOLE A PACKAGE OF NINTY NINE CENT HAM. THERE WERE SIX COURT APPEARANCES OVER THAT HAM. A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN TOOK PLACE AND IT WAS DOWNHILL SINCE.
THE BUREAUCRATIC SYSTEM, PLAYED WITH HIM. HE WAS FINE UNTIL THEN. NOW HE SUFFERS EVEN MORE. YET WHEN I EMBRACE HIM, IT IS THOUGH I AM BEING EMBRACED BY AN ANGEL. HIS TOUCH IS ETHERIAL, IT IS THE EMBRACE I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED EXCEPT ON THE OTHER SIDE, YOU KNOW WHERE PURE LOVE EXISTS.
IF MY TRAGEDIES EVER STOP, I WILL GET ON WITH MY BOOK, IT SHALL BE TITLED. I AM A CELL IN THE BODY OF GOD, WHICH IS THE UNIVERSE. I WAS GIVEN THIS TITLE WHEN I WAS IN AN NDE. SO MAYBE MY PURPOSE IS TO TEACH A LOT OF PEOPLE, TO TEACH THEM NOT TO FRET OVER THE LITTLE THINGS, AND TO ENJOY THE LOVE OF THEIR CHILDREN, AND TO TOUCH EACH THING THEIR CHILDREN DO IS THE MOST VALUABLE THING IN LIFE. FOR WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PERFECTING THOSE THAT GO AFTER US, I ONLY HOPE THAT I WILL HAVE THE STRENGTH TO DO MY JOB.
I WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE THREE YEARS AGO TOMORROW, A HOUSE FIRE NEARLY TOOK OUR LIVES, OUR CAT SAVED OUR LIVES, AND IT WAS ON CNN TV WORLDWIDE. HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR HIM WAKING ME UP I WOULD NOT BE HERE TAKING CARE OF MY DYING SON.
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