Did I have a NDE?
I read a lot about NDE's, and I guess the definition can differ from person to person. But I believe I had one 2 days ago.
I was at a friend's house, hanging out and drinking beers. I had about four... not too many. A few of my friends were convincing me to smoke marijuana out of a gravity bong, of course this was not my first time smoking and it wasn't the first time using the GB so I thought why not.
The weed must have been laced is what I think, or the GB sucked all of the oxygen out of my lungs because right afterwards I began feeling very dizzy, uncoordinated and nauseated. I began to throw up violently. I sat down, I layed down. Suddenly I realized that I was having trouble breathing... I began to panic. I ran to my friend and urgently persisted that he call 911 right then and there.
The rest of what happened sort of seemed like a weird dream... I was there, but I wasn't. I remember asking him, when are they going to be here? He kept telling me soon, but I knew he was lying.
The paramedics arrived and the police, I guess. I never opened my eyes once during the whole thing, I'm not sure why. They asked me what I did, if I had taken any drugs, and I told them that I just had a few beers and smoked some weed, they didn't seem to believe me.
I was throwing up still... I couldn't stop. My life flashed before my eyes... my mind was racing... my thoughts going wild. I seriously thought I was going to die. I do not know how close to death I was though, the paramedics kept telling me I was fine but I didn't believe them. I guess I had a vision? I am not sure. But I saw all of the people that I loved... flashing through my head. And all I could think was that they all hated me and wouldn't miss me if I had gone. I have never been more scared in my life.
I am only 20 years old, I didn't want to die. And what if my loved ones wouldn't miss me? That was my greatest fear. I guess the ambulance took me to the hospital, this is extremely blurry but I somehow was into the bed. I needed the paramedic's assistance to get up, I made them pick me up because I was so weak I couldn't do it on my own.
While I was in the hospital, I fell asleep. I had a dream. I feel like this was my NDE, or just a vivid dream? I saw my first love... he was there. He was the only thing that would have mattered to me if I died right there... and he didn't want me. It tore me apart. I woke up and they discharged me from the hospital never telling me what happened or what was wrong.
Was this an NDE? Or just a horrible experience?
(While this experience is technically not a near death experience, I felt it should be published to show that drug reaction is never same. It is dangerous to do drugs.)
