Special Marijuanna?
I don't really know if you can call this a near-death-experience, but one night at my friends house I was smoking marijuanna, and I had drank quite a bit. Suddenly I felt very confused, in an almost timeless state, similar to what one might feel when panic'ing, the fight-or-flight response. I felt a surge of energy.(Note: I thought I was doing marijuanna, but it turns out "special marijuanna" was in circulation, the doctors concluded it was laced with a bit of jimson weed)
During this experience, I was sure I was dying. All I could think about was my mother, and how sad she would be if I passed. I prayed desperately to God to allow me to live, I was extremely frightened.
The feeling persisted for quite a bit, my heart was racing. My friend called 911, an ambulance arrived and found my heart rate was resting at about ~150. After they rushed me into the ER I sustained a heart rate of about 160+ for ~3 hours, before it slowly subsided. When my heart rate normalized, they sent me home.
Over the next week I was a nervous wreck. I had frequent panic attacks, severe anxiety, and depression. Eventually I started on Zoloft for about a month, which didn't help me at all. As a matter of fact, I had terrible side-effects while on it, including waking up shaking, confused, sweating, strange states of mind, headaches, sensitivity to light, nightmares, pressure in my head, pins and needles in my head.
Anyway, I didn't immediately make the connection that those symptoms were caused by Zoloft. I actually had an MRI done, which showed I was completely physically normal. As far as the doctors were concerned, I was completely healthy.
After stopping Zoloft my symptoms immediately ceased. I dropped the anti-depressant and tried to go through it all on my own strength. Through exercise, vitamin suppliments, and the love of my family I managed to get through most of this recovery.
I've read quite a bit of near-death-experiences on your webpage. I can't thank you enough for what you've done for me. Your page has been life-changing, a beacon of light in the darkness.
My question is this - Even after this experience, its like I'm not all here. While I'm physically fine, there are times when things just feel "unreal." Its hard to describe, like this world is an illusion. I never felt like this before my trip to the ER that night. Do you know if this is somewhat of a common after-effect of an NDE? While I've read quite a bit of NDEs, I haven't found anything on the after-effects of one.
With love, E.
(Feeling this world is just an illusion is common to NDEers. The above experience points out the dangers of drugs. While this is not technically an NDE it has some of the after-effects of one. It is another good example of the "learning" experiences this world offers us.")
