re: my battle with voices-what have I become?

I felt suicidal last night. I had all these thoughts running through my head and how I've been treating people-like my friend Paige doesn't think I like her.

Brit, as is so often the case it feels like three steps forward and two steps back--but that is progress.

I just feel like ever since I've gotten so much knowledge about things I feel so prideful and absorbed in myself and I shouldn't.....I mean shouldn't it do the opposite?

Pride is so difficult to deal with.  On the one hand, you feel you are making progress and that is beneficial, on the other hand the emotion tends to set you apart from others and that is unreal, since we are all in this together, we must support each other and render assistance at every turn.  It's easy really and is summed up siccantly in that one admonition:  "Love one another."

Namaste,

     -- Charles

"Your relationship with yourself-begins everything else. If you despise yourself-it affects your relationship with God and others." -heard that from a cd


I guess my pride started from first not liking myself so I built up a protective wall of false superiority in order to protect myself but in the end it hurt me which made me suicidal.
Thats a good analogy of taking 3 steps forward and 2 steps back.
"We are all in this together!"

Thank you so much for making me feel better!

Thank you so much for making me feel better!

I am happy that this helped you.  I didn't know if it would, but I felt that I had to try.  When I saw your message, and you mentioned feeling suicidal, I wanted to say something to help you feel better if I could.  My words come from conviction and from struggles I have had to deal with over the years and am still dealing with now.  Life ain't easy!

Namaste,

     -- Charles